It has been an overwhelming couple of days to say the least. I can’t explain what it is like to actually get the call about your referral and the roller coaster of emotions that follow that moment. I have waited years for that moment and it is still somewhat sureal to me.
I have to tell you, I have done so much to prepare for this. I have crossed my t’s and dotted my i’s… and thensome. I have my lists prepared, my contacts in line, the room ready and so on and so on. But nothing I have done has prepared me for what it feels like to ACTUALLY become a mother and the overwhelming sense of worry that comes along with that job. It is truly a feeling I have NEVER experienced before… and although scary, it is absolutely wonderful… and literally takes my breath away at moments. I now know honestly what love at first sight actually is.
I thought going through the paperwork process was tough, and I thought the wait for referral was torture… but this is by far the hardest, FINALLY having a face to look at and not be able to hold her.
I carry my one picture of her with me everywhere and I think I have it printed for every room in my house… literally. I just can’t stop looking at her beautiful little face! We are so in love with her.
For those waiting for referral, brace yourselves. You will spin with that overwhelming joy very soon, and in that moment you will realize God brought you just to where you are supposed to be and from then on your lives will never be the same again.
We are lucky that someone within our agency will be traveling within the next few weeks and we are thankful they will hand deliver these items to Elizabeth. It will also be great to hear how she is doing and get some more pictures of her.
I had been embarking on the daunting (for me) project of making this blanket of which I was going to send to her in the orphanage until we can get there. I literally just finished it about two weeks ago. Perfect timing.
